Peace and calm

And the decision anxiety was over for now. And I realize that I had forgot how good it feels to have taken a special decision.

Ya, my brother tried to remind me the other day. But it didn't helped at all for the moment. He tried to be so helpfull and I could just don't see it.

But some where it feels like when I had reached a maximum level of anxiety and agony, my brain just gave up. I'm to tierd, I stop thinking so much and I do what I maybe should have done earlier to avoid all this. I go to action.

And actually I do it on two fronts at the same time. When I reached the limit for the last decision I had to take, I maybe realiced that I needed to do the same on an other area of life too, to be able to go on.

I got to the conclusion that if I don't try I never gone know. If I don't do anything the time just gone run out, and I still gone stand there wondering it things could have been different.

And then I probably should not think so little about myself either. And dare to let go a bit more of the fear to make mistakes. I have come a bit on the way with that one. But it's still more to go...

But to take the decisions and make a action have right now just filled me with a strange type of peace and calm that spread itself out in my whole body. It feels like I had forgot how it was to be relaxed. And even if I know that it's more steps on the way, answeres to get and so on. Right now I have just landed in a big cloud of calm.