Singel-track minded peolpe

Sometimes I feel so sad about how people function and act. Why we just seems too be so extreamly singel-track minded.

Can't we spend time with one another just because we having alot of fun together, air our opinions about nothing and everything, give one another some good laughter and just enjoy the company of each other.

Why should it be so impossible for grown-ups to be good friends without including sex? Does everything need to end up in sex? Is the nice company I spend, with people I want to see as friends, nothing worth if they don't get the last part?

That gets me to feel like I'm only there for one thing. It makes me sad that the meeting with me as person don't seem to be more worth then a nice lay. And it makes me sad that I need to be loosing friends like them totaly.

It actually feels like it's about paying with sex to get friendship and nice social times. But that's not what I'm intrested in. I want to get to know people that can spend time together for fun, for growing and for enjoymend in life without the ulterior motive to end up with getting a lay.

I actually have a couple of friends that have this rare way to be able to be close. We talking, discussing, dreaming and sharing thoughs about almost everything. Working together, doing funny things together, and just lay on the side of one another long nights. But by the time you get older, it seem to just get harder to find this rare people.

I just hope I gone meet more of you out there some where. I know we can't be alown, even if we not equipet with the most common state of mind.

Lost

So easy you can deceive your self. Or atleast I can. I have for a long time known that I have a bit of a lack about local content. But I actuallt started to belive that I had got a little bit better on it, and feelt quite good about it.

But no way. I'm not so sure about that one any longer.

I'm at present in Hamburg with the boat. And yesturday me and one of my colleagues went up to city centre for a nice meal and a walk through some stores. It feelt very good and we just had a nice time away outside our bunker we usualy spend the most of the time in.

We went all the way up there. And on the way back we choosed between walking back or taking the underground a couple of stations. But it was a very nice, even if cold, evening. So why not walk abit more. We know how we got here, so it can't be too difficoult to find back.

And it started out quite good. We found the direction we got from. But then we thought we maybe coult get a bit of variation by taking another way just on the side that looked nice. And so we did. The only thing was that it seems like that way turned a bit in wrong direction without me realy notice it. So after a wail when we start to feel that we didn't recognized anything any longer, we found a map at a undergroundstation. We found out that we in some way had ended up in the opposite side of city centre, even if we started walking in the right direction from the beginning. So then we ended up taking the underground a couple of stations anyway...

But I trying to learn to see things positive. And for the moment we had no time to watch, or no one waiting for us or anything. So we just got the chanse to see abit more nice parts of the town. And also try out the undergroundssystem. So not much to complain about.

I probably just should take it as a reminder to not trust my feeling for local content to much... =)

Communication and life

Then some days had just run away again. I'm out at sea and have had quite much to do the last days. Feels good to be here. I just love it, and hate it. Usualy at the same time =)

But right now it's maybe not realy hate. More the irritated, stressed, chocked feeling wandering around inside me. Once again I have got reminded about the importens of good communication.

I can't realy see how difficult it should be to go out in time when things are decided and inform people that in some way can be affected. In some companies it can affect some persons if a "main system" close down for a couple of weeks even if the activity for the moment not are running. Other parties can maybe be needing big amounts of information or something like that. And with a preworning with e-mail about 3 hours before the shutdown at same time with other work running, it some times can be difficoult to prepare a couple of weeks work for a couple of different persons. But for some companies that maybe normal procedure, what do I know.

But it's not only in the world of companies and business that communication is very importent. It's even more important among friends, family and loved ones. Not talking and not knowing is usualy alot more painful then it should need to be.

Maybe it not always possible to have it like that, with good communication I meen. But to guess what's happening with someone that you don't see or don't hear from, you have no idea about the answer. And at least my brain often tries to tell me the worse alternative instead of the nicest and best. Don't realy understand why it's needed to be like that, but it's very easy to get there especialy in some specific areas in life. That a person can't answere the phone for the moment don't meen you need to be ignored. To not get an aswere on a mail, don't need to meen that the person ever want to see you again. And to not get contact in any way for a wail don't meen the person necessarily gone disappear for ever out of your life. Maybe they just are a bit busy for the moment, a bit drunk, having problems with the technique, or maybe all at the same time.

I probably just hate the thought about loosing people I love...