Times fly...I will fly....

One year passed by. Time flew away. Allot has happened. Allot has not happened. Outside and inside. And when I reading the last post I can still just agree.

Now I try to find back, back to my demons, but especially back to my own inner angels.
And today I got some reminders in a meeting with a new friend. Dare to be your self, try to lift, fly away and bring your self to new levels in what ever you want. Get rid of your fears, and meet life with a smile.

You can meet nice people out there...crazy, wonderful and creative people out there....time to open up again, time to dare, time to learn new things and move on. Search my dreams and believe.

Learn from the past, bring the treasures with you in heart and soul, but never let the past be a burden....it's to much of the future out there just waiting....

Kill off all my demons....

Have just had a movie night by my self here at home. Relaxing, trying to leave the guilty feelings for not getting the things done that I planed to get done...

Starting with a sad one, letting some tears running down my cheek to get some of the tension out ot my body and mind. Sometimes you can just need to cry a bit, even if you not really sad...have you ever felt like that? I do, once in a wail...depending on life around me. And today I tried it out with "Grace is gone". And it worked. The tears flowed for a wail.

Afterwords I thought I should dare my self and hope not finding a too scary thriller here in my lonely darkness. So I rounded off with Transibirian. Yes, I know. Maybe a bit after in the movie world...but such life...you can't get time for everything you want.

But anyway...tonight I saw it...a quite good movie I believe...but the only thing that got stuck in my brain from it, was not really the story it self...it's a quote from the movie...

"Kill off all my demons, Roy, and my angels might die, too."

I found out that the original quote is from Tennessee Williams:

"If I got rid of my demons, I’d lose my angels"

And it's just so true. We people are amazingly good on trying to change other people without success. It's frustrating, I know. But is it ever possible to do a good work on a thing like that.
I'm not so sure about that. The only one that can change me am me. And the only one that can change you are you....so way all this energy on trying to change others instead of our self?

I'm trying to do my best with changing myself. It don't go fast, but it goes. But as my second quote from the movie says: "Life is a journey, not a destination". In other words, I'm on my journey, in both body and mind, and I planing on keeping it going.

The feeling of a curse

Now I definitely know, now I got the last prof....I'm cursed....

Me and my cars. I have been told that I probably easily could keep a blog only about me and my cars. But no, then I have to see it in the eyes to often. But today it's just to much anyway...so way not.

I can't neither cry or laugh. I just feel a empty calm, coldness, tiredness. And one conclution, just do not never ever trust them....never...the cars I mean...

They just make up evil plans. Will see how much problem you can handle and stand before you break. And yes, I have been close, very close. But I still choose, I choose to be happy, or at least to not be too sad. At least I have learned something new today, how to mount back a loose alternator belt...that I haven't done before.

Thanks for helpful people, that it still possible to fine someone of you out there. Life should be so much harder without you....